I Hope You Know

I will keep it short and simple:

I hope you know that it really breaks my heart to tell you what I am about to tell you. First of all, I’m grateful for EVERYTHING that you have done. You have a different way of showing affection but at the end of the day we all know it is because you care.

Secondly, I don’t care whatever it is that you want to believe but what I believe in is important to me – and that is you are a BEAUTIFUL person inside and out. You are funny, witty, sincere… oh my, I cannot continue. The thought of never being able to see that pretty dimple on your face much longer saddens me, and I don’t like that.

Last and definitely not the least, I love you… with all my heart. I know I have never said those words to you but I know you know that I do.

Again, thank you so much for everything.

A Bad Day

That feeling when something happened and out of all days, you suddenly become a little too sensitive and you start feeling small as tears begin forming along the lower part of your eyes. You want to bawl out the living thing out of you but you’re in public – without a companion.

That feeling – I strongly loathe it.

The tears didn’t want to stop pouring down my face as I went down the escalator, while I was in the train, at work, and even while I was in the bank. People were looking so I had to keep turning away everywhere as a sign to show that they’re making me uncomfortable. It was so bad  😥

I Hate That Feeling

I hate that I am the one who always makes her cry.

I hate that I am not able to understand how she truly feels.

I hate that she can never see things the way I do.

I hate that she does not see me as a role model.

I hate that all she sees in me is nothing but an evil-plotting monster.

I hate that we do not spend even the littlest time together anymore.

I hate that I have to act strong in front of her.

I hate that she is seven years younger than me.

I hate that our interests are beginning to differ.

I hate knowing that she hates me.

Missing My Mother

Edgar: (sighs) I’ll leave you two then.

Jen: No, please stay. You two have to stay together. I want the two of you to be with me, at least until I’m… gone.

Aura: Mother…

Jen: (smiles) It’s something I have to accept. We all have to.

She tucks my long fringe behind an ear.

Jen: You’re beautiful, Aurelia. I always knew you were. I never could stop thinking about you, even if I wanted to.

I embrace my mother for as long as I can while she strokes my hair. I miss her so much it is making me cry.